All these years of love gone by,
Treasured feelings lost in a single fleeting second of lies,
Yet, here I am today, writing about you,
Wishing you’d still remember me.
Cruel and harsh were the words I said,
Unforgivable are the things you did,
But you promised to love me for as long as you lived,
So here I am, apologizing for the crimes that you’ve commit.
I wanted to make my dreams come true,
You gave me what I always wanted,
You thought your ways were what I admired,
I put up with your unbearable habits, only to get what I desired.
Slowly, my feelings began to change,
I accepted you as you were, and found charm in all you did,
But fear of you one day leaving me,
Gripped me so hard, I could hardly breathe.
Several times I broke your heart,
A feeble attempt to save my own,
And I cried through the lonely nights,
Nowhere but the pillow did my tears find home.
It wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be,
I began to realize how much I really loved you.
I tried to tell you,
And you always listened - so intently, so sweetly,
The sound of your breath serenaded your love to me,
I cry now, I never knew, your heart could grow so cold.
You can call it fate or you can it circumstance,
We were pulled away, but not by chance.
Something was wrong, something terrible,
Just when I thought things couldn’t get any more incredible,
You broke my heart and walked away,
Left I alone, left me alone.
I cursed the nights, for they would never pass,
I couldn’t sleep,
I couldn’t breathe,
I cried unstoppable tears that held no mass.
Every night I lay on my bed,
Counting the pieces of my broken heart,
Hours of mine trying to fix it, wasted away,
All these feelings are still inside me, turned to guilt or sorrow maybe.
So, here I am today,
Without you, thinking I am happy and fulfilled,
My will so weak,
It shatters at the very thought of a mention of your name.
I don’t know what to do,
Sitting here, writing about you,
Wishing we meet again,
And hope lingers on within me, that maybe you still love me.
